Yah. For them i look normally crazy cause i do laugh and smile and all of that– but i’m depress. i just don’t want them to notice so i’m hiding it– there’s nothing they can do.. You know the feeling that you just want to cry all day yet you can’t ?.. There’s so many things inside my mind that keeps on bothering me.
So i’m not letting myself vacant for even just a minute.. I just want to do lots of things so that i wouldn’t remember all of it.. You know that, you didn’t do anything and suddenly there it goes.. all you know is that you’re hurt without you even knowing why they hate you.. Its just seems so wrong..
I just miss hangin’ out with my bff so much. It’s been 2 weeks since we last talk and i don’t know where she’s now.. I want her to know all of these things.. I’m so sad.. i need someone to talk to really but they’re busy and stuff so i guess i’ll just waste their time. . I don’t want to rant about this but i can’t help it. I really need to let it all out.
- My bffs having her major problem now and i think tita is kinda blaming me some stuff. (It’s because of me again..)
- My friend just suddenly walked out last thursday and then she’s crying and all i know is she’s there shouting at me and telling me that naiinis na daw siya. inis na inis na siya saken. and i just don’t know why.. I didn’t do anything to her!! I JUST HATE HER FOR NOT TELLING ME! I don’t care if she cries! YOU DON’T KNOW HOW I FEEL! ANG HIRAP MONG MAGING KAIBIGAN!!!!
- My moms kinda pressuring me about my grades,, if i got again a grade lower than two. I’ll stop schooling (again) what a crap! Im not Einstein or someone!
- I feel like they’re all just there in a certain situation where all of us are happy then suddenly when you’re feeling down. ayun. wala na sila.
- I hate cryin yet can’t stop..
I just don’t know what to do.. sorry for the sad post..ü I guess 2010 is not really that better..
*HUGZ* dear you need a BIG HUG!! It’s sad to see that you can’t even talk to your bff *hugz* My friend is sort of experiencing what you’re feeling, I hope your friend will tell you what’s the problem. Seriously, talking it out helps. I want to throw a rock at that friend of yours. Keeping it to herself isn’t good. *hugz* Don’t worry, you’re not alone. I feel depressed and lack energy. But I must be positive. Positive energy must be attracted… i don’t know… i have some hope… i think… i hope..
we can do this dear!! God bless you!
Comment by tiff k — January 25, 2010 @ 5:46 PM
awww ate, i know what you feel. I’ve experienced that before.I hope you and your friend will have time. Communication will do :).
Comment by JEANU | oh-some — January 25, 2010 @ 6:46 PM